I’ve been loved and I’ve loved hard but never in it, always just off to the side. Always just a circling the drain. I never fell. On the outside looking in. I was never pushed. I figured out what “normal” looked like in a relationship and I tried to emulate it as best I could. When I slipped,…
OH MY GOD
Yes, I was thinking of Gnarls Barkley when I wrote this. Why do you ask?
Also, this is my latest for XOJane.com discussing my life living with bipolar II disorder. It’s the most honest I’ve been about this. I usually tend to get clinical and distant but this time, I wanted to really try and understand what happens in this brain of mine.
Things I forgot I wrote
Part of the reason why my article for XOJane was so difficult for me was because of how raw it was. I think over the years, due to my career as a performer, how to give people a very little and make them feel like they’re getting everything. I did it on twitter and I do it on blog on occasion. You…
Things I forgot I wrote but really needed to read. Wow.
It is important to talk to someone impartial who listens with no ulterior motives. I like to talk and share. I do that through different mediums. To me therapy was like tweeting outloud. You do have to be comfortable and it will take you a few tries. Dont feel compelled to stay with a therapist if you Dont click. What’s important is your freedom and safety and process towards healing. Try to relax and consider the help you need and be kind to yourself.
I found it a few weeks ago. I will repost it as soon as I can get to a computer.
I need to stop forgetting that I’m a brave girl. A woman who follows her heart even if it leads her off a cliff. I know I’m strong enough to climb back up, dust myself off, laugh at the ridiculous of it all and still find room in my heart to allow someone to enter. I need to stop forgetting that…
Finding old posts upon my return to tumblr.
Today my apartment caught on fire and I lost everything.
Well, I dont want to lie. My two favorite pieces of furniture (two end tables) and most of my books/dvds/music all managed to be salvageable. I think. Once the fire trucks left and I dealt with Red Cross, I had to dip. I just couldnt be…
Why I’m deeply in love with Bruno Mars and Phil!
i love him
ANDREA, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
WHAT IS THAT?
BOY DON’T EVEN TOUCH THIS. BOY THIS BEAT IS CRAZY. THIS IS HOW THEY MADE ME, HOUSTON TEXAS BABY! WHO RUN THE WORLD? GIRLS! WHO RUN THE WORLD? GIRLS!
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT. IS IT A POKEMON OR SOMETHING? DON’T YOU WANT TO BE A DOCTOR OR A LAWYER?
IT’S HOT UP IN HERE! DJ DON’T BE SCARED TO RUN THIS, RUN THIS BACK! I’M REPPING FOR THE GIRLS TAKING OVER THE WORLD, LET ME RAISE A GLASS FOR THE COLLEGE GRADS!
THAT’S GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. LET’S GO GET SOME ICE CREAM